Broken Heart

Gotta love old age.

Or not.

Accepting my lot in life is not my favorite occupation.

So, I recently volunteered to help with the kindergarten class at church. Each time, I have fallen in love! That age is so sweet. I’ve been able to get to class using my cane and have safely side stepped the little ones as they joyfully scurry from room to room. I take my little stool to sit on in each area. As our group wasn’t stationed against a wall during the large group activity today, I remained seated during the enthusiastic singing time.

All was well.

However, as I stood and moved forward to help a little girl find today’s Bible verse, I leaned over with my backside up in the air – not a good look for sure! I realized how quickly I could end up top over tea kettle as the saying goes. I couldn’t hold my cane with my hand for steadiness and successfully sort through the thin pages to find James 4:8. I held the cane with my armpit and finally found the verse only to realize standing up straight again was a challenge. I did the hand over hand push up along the cane and finally made it.

At that moment, the devastating decision was made. I wonder if the leader had seen my weakness because as I came to a vertical position, she was right beside me. I told her at that moment I could no longer help.

Back in our small group, I questioned my hasty decision. I have the ‘Grammie vibe,’ and one little boy stood close and snuggled his head on my shoulder as we tried to find the correct letter sequence for our search a word. So precious!

But facts are facts. I’m old and nigh on to ancient. Whether I like it or not. Oh well.

I’m trying to figure out an object lesson that I can relate to God’s word.

2 Corinthians 4 in The Message is a bit of encouragement. Here’s my take. Every detail of our lives God works to our advantage if we dedicate our lives to Him. Most importantly, our committed lives work to God’s advantage by giving more grace to others and more praise to Him. Verse 16 says, ‘So we’re not giving up. How could we! Even though on the outside if often looks like things are falling apart on us, (including my body, UGH!) on the inside, where God is making new life, not a day goes by without His unfolding grace. These hard time are small potatoes compared to the coming good times, the lavish celebration prepared for us. There’s far more here than meets the eye. The things we see now are here today, gone tomorrow. But the things we can’t see now will last forever.’

So, until that ultimate day, I can pray for the little ones and their leaders – which is probably more advantageous anyway.

Blessings

Kara Beth