Arrogance and Apologies

I was going to say, “Hello, my name is Kara Beth, and I am arrogant.” But I think I am just tired! Tired! Tired!

And maybe more than a little bit stubborn, and yes, sadly, arrogant.

Sigh.

As I have been trying to get my 8 books ready to finally publish, I have edited them until I am blue in the face! I have read them silently, read them aloud, had the built in review reader on the computer read them to me, let the computer programs help me edit, and read and reedited them again and again.

I thought I finally had them perfect. I’m glad I didn’t push the publish button.

I sent a sample to a company that may publish print copies of my books. The head honcho sent a few pages to her editor. Within the first few pages, I had spelled the main character’s name two different ways. Mercy!

Needless to say, that was humiliating, and an appropriate apology was sent. It was a wake up call for me to edit each story again. And Again.

Each time, I think I’ve got it right. But sadly, no. Each time through, there are one or two little mistakes. ARGH!!!

I’m sure there are still punctuation mistakes, but I am working to get the books relatively correct and ready to go. In the meantime, I’m working on some necessary emotional and spiritual editing.

Sometimes, when I think I’ve got something down pat or perfect, it’s just not so. I’m not going to talk again about patience and my lack of the same. I’ve written enough blogs on that issue to sink a ship. I have blogged on everything from my spicy, plumbing language to my problems with authority. There are so many faults in my life that need a serious DELETE button pressed, and the constant editing is taking a lifetime!

I guess I need to take Paul’s example at this point. Through all his trials, he kept on doing what God had called him to do. He didn’t give up as I have been prone to do in the past. The great part of Paul’s life he tells in 2 Timothy 4. He not only fought a good fight and finished the race, he kept the faith!

An even better example is the Lord Jesus. Knowing what He would face, and despite torture and humiliation, He finished His task. Because He lived the life that was planned from eternity past, we can live our lives in His freedom to trust the author and finisher of our faith.

It’s comforting to me to know that in eternity with God, I will be the perfectly edited version.

In the meantime, I’ll keep trusting, praying, seeking, and knowing without a doubt that Jesus loves me.

And editing.

Blessings

KB