Mercy!

Lord, have mercy!

God is good – all the time!

Me – not so much.

I have some choices to make to deal with pain – put on my big girl panties and smile, get another stop gap intervention, or take a selfie off the rim of the Grand Canyon.

Okay, so I have been in a snit for quite some time, yesterday for example when the electrical contractor’s helper came in and started asking Ronald what was to be done. Since I am the inside repair person of our house, that ticked me off from the beginning. My list of items to be addressed was ignored until I insisted rather rudely that it be read. I got seated on my ice pad once again and tried to cool my back and my aggravated nerves.

Today, going once more to a doctor, rather his PA, to address my chronic back pain had my nerves totally fried. In other words, I was really quite cranky – AKA-  I was a total  – you get the idea.

Until Nurse N came in. Her sweet spirit and joy calmed my heart and relaxed my attitude drastically.

Until I spoke with the PA who assured me my latest MRI showed nothing that would indicate any reason for my pain.

I was proud of myself that I did not go off on him, but used my calm, sweet old lady voice to assure him that my pain and weakness were genuine. I did not express any concerns about the abilities of his diagnostic tools to accurately assess my problem, nor did I question his or any doctor’s lack of empathy. Wasn’t I a good girl?

In the meantime, I have my big girl under drawers hiked as high as they’ll go. I have my mouth guard firmly in place to keep from grinding my teeth in pain and frustration so that I can continue to smile with all my teeth firmly in place without anymore fake ones. I agreed to go to the pain management doctor to get another shot which I am almost sure will not work any better than the last jillion did. Finally, I am calling my travel agent for a one way ticket to the Grand Canyon.

I’m sure the following words don’t refer to things like my back pain, but they give me some hope nonetheless.

That is why we never give up. Though our bodies are dying, our inner strength in the Lord is growing every day. These troubles and sufferings of ours are, after all, quite small and won’t last very long. Yet this short time of distress will result in God’s richest blessing upon us forever and ever. So we do not look at what we can see right now, the troubles around us, but we look forward to the joys in heaven which we have not yet seen. The troubles will soon be over, but the joys to come will last forever.

TLB  2 Corinthians 4:16-18

Blessings

KB

Sure wish my knee doctor worked on backs! I’d be well in no time!