Do Overs

I remember my first F.

Of course, it was in math. I was in fifth grade, totally devastated, humiliated, cried my eyes out, and was sent to the bathroom to recover. Such is the traumatic life of a nine year old girl.  Since I had skipped second grade, I was sometimes at a loss how to deal with failure and emotions among my older peers. At least Mrs. Welch gave me a chance at a do over. I must have done better. I don’t recall getting another F in math after that.

While doing some classes toward construction technology, my construction business math teacher said she felt I had math phobia. She had a hard time understanding why I was so nervous in the class because my work was consistantly acceptable. Even more than fifth grade math, I felt I needed to have a perfect understanding of estimating costs of labor and materials when building  our retirement house. I didn’t get the chance. I went to work, and Ronald oversaw the construction. Maybe in heaven I can get the opportunity to build something.

I guess in a way, I am building my reputation daily. I know I am working on developing and maturing my spiritual being.

Sadly, along the way, I am failing pretty much every test concerning my patience. Every time I get an opportunity to prove that I have overcome that particular weakness, I prove that I get to go back to the drawing board. No matter how prayed up or studied up I am, I can’t get it right! Argh!

Anyway. I’m sure I’ll get another opportunity for a spiritual redo. The picture above of a snail refers to a song from Music Machine in which a snail is an example of great patience. Getting from here to there is probably a pretty trialsome thing, even more than my journey to perfection. Maybe he’ll reach his destination. I’m pretty sure I won’t attain mine until heaven.

Enough sad stuff. Here’s a joke.

Why is a teddybear never hungry? Because he is stuffed!

Blessings

KB

Is your life full of difficulties and temptations? Then be happy, for when the way is rough, your patience has a chance to grow. So let it grow, and don’t try to squirm out of your problems. For when your patience is finally in full bloom, then you will be ready for anything, strong in character, full and complete. James 1:1-4 TLB