Delusions and Reality

There are so many things I learned during my recent hospital stay.

Before I went in, I said to myself and anyone who would listen, “I have a high pain tolerance. I don’t need strong meds.”

LIAR!

I am a total wimp! The nurses were kept on their toes hauling me tiny handfuls of meds when I was screaming for more!

Cluelessly, I packed all these lovely new clothes. I was determined to get up first thing every morning and get showered and dressed for the day with full makeup and earrings. Reality was that I begged to just be left alone in my split tailed gown. At home, I wash my hair pretty much every day, but I learned I can go days without washing my hair and not give a rat’s patootie. And earrings disturb a body’s nap time. I have to say at this point, nap time trumps earrings every time.

My critical spirit was once more challenged, and I have taken a serious look at my abilities to overcome pain and a foggy mind. Before my surgery, an acquaintance said she hadn’t been online for several weeks due to surgery and its aftermath. “Hah!” I responded in my mind. “I’m tougher than that!”

NOT!

I couldn’t put two coherent words together to make a simple sentence, much less write a blog!

The old saying about not criticizing someone until you’ve walked in her shoes is true. I have now walked in those shoes, and I am humbled to recognize my self-righteous, egotistical attitudes. May the Lord feel free to give me a serious, attitude adjustment!

Hard life lessons keep coming my way. I guess the Lord isn’t done with me yet!

Blessings

KB

Psalm 139:23,24 ESV

Search me, O God, and know my heart! Try me and know my thoughts! And see if there be any grievous way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting!